Hey Readers!! I decided to spice up my first 2020 blog post 😏 I had a wild virus for like 22 out of the 31 days of January, but I’m still HEEERRREE!! Happy February and Happy Black History Month!!
I wanted to kick off my new year of blogging with something uplifting. Get ready to be inspired!
As y’all know, my life has been a tornado for a bit. It seems I’ve at least gotten through the eye of the storm though and I’m beginning to see how God has deeply changed me. This is HUGE because usually I believe God can incredibly transform other people, but have barely any faith when it comes to my own growth. After seeing myself mess up so much I began to think, “Maybe I’m too much for even God to work with.” I wouldn’t dare say that to someone else, but I consistently fed my own mind and heart this lie.
It’s a terrible lie for many reasons, but the biggest reason is that I have refused God’s power and love. This is prideful and damaging for myself and my relationship with God. There are hundreds of scriptures that combat this lie and I’ve read them all, how was I still so blinded? Also how could I, with such deep faith, encourage others about the love and power of God for them, yet miss out on it personally? I know I’ve told many people, “You are being transformed into the image of God, He hasn’t given up on you!” (2 Corinthians 3:18) then I’ll hear in my heart, “I haven’t given up on you Anijah, I’m transforming you too.” And I’m just like:
Can ya relate?
Although I prayed with tears and frustration to be better, I just couldn’t seem to get it right. At the same time, I would see God do amazing things with people around me. I have witnessed some incredible transformations that, to this day, send shivers through my soul. Only God could do such miracles in a person. So what was stopping God in my case? Is it my lack of faith or egregious sins or my specific brand of crazy?
What I have learned in a more profound way is that everyone’s journey with God is unique. There are themes in common like suffering, joy, growth and love, but how they are woven together in each life are different. I think of it as a variety of plants, some grow fast, some grow slow, but they all grow.
I want to speak the late bloomers, but I don’t like that term because it makes it seem like you missed something. So let’s call ourselves slow bloomers.
So, slow bloomers, I want you to know that the work God has been doing in us is deliberate, full of love and honestly a mystery. Just as we don’t see all that is happening to a seed under the soil, we can’t see how God is moving within us. As we live our everyday life, the Spirit is working overtime inside and around us to bring us closer to God. This occurs in the moments when we’re a “good” Christian and when we are a bumbling, spiritual mess. At our worst and at our best.
“In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit Himself intercedes for us through wordless groans. And He who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for God’s people in accordance with the will of God. And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, whohave been called according to his purpose.”
I know at times it can feel like we will never arrive and that we’ll be buried under the soil forever. Especially when we see others around us overcome sin and become stronger in their faith. We want to believe in God’s power and love, but we feel like an anomaly. It may feel true, but it is a lie.
It can seem that all of our prayers to transform our character are going to God’s spam box in His holy email account, but it’s not true. He sees them all and has been working to make us complete in Him. There is NO way we can come into contact with God, the love of Jesus, and not be changed. As we walk with Him we learn His ways and see who He truly is. But this takes time, the world has been teaching us for many years and we have much to unlearn to become like Jesus.
“Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.”
-2 Corinthians 4:16-18
We must not forget that the day we devoted our lives to God was the beginning. The rest of our lives on Earth will be filled with growth, pruning, watering, and, most exciting of all, bearing fruit. Each of these stages are amazing because a loving God is behind it all and He does not make senseless actions. How beautiful is it to be seen as your full unfinished, imperfect self yet still be believed in by the perfect Creator of the whole Universe?
So no, we are not late bloomers. We are right at the stage we are supposed to be in as we move toward seeing God face to face. Our roots are growing deeper in times of testing. We are gaining energy to endure cloudy days while the sun is shining on us in times of joy. As we pray, read, fast and meditate God is providing the water and nutrients needed for us to become the unique disciples of Jesus He planned for us to be long ago. Our Gardener loves us and tends to us more than we could ever comprehend.
“Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.”
As I’ve been writing this post my emotions have been deeply stirred. I want so much to hug anyone who needed this post. These words come from my heart, but also from God’s heart. As someone who is wrestling to see how God can actually make me a new creation, I feel you and see you. He has not left us. His work is not done. Hang in there and let the process continue. In every stage He is good.
“And this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless for the day of Christ, filled with the fruit of righteousness that comes through Jesus Christ—to the glory and praise of God.”
I love you all! Thank you for reading!
Moore Awaits ♥️