The inner workings of my mind everyone.
Yes, even in this fabulous, new city my genius mind has found a way to stress itself out over a myriad of large and small concerns. Many of which I don’t need to be concerned with. It’s been hard to enjoy myself the last few weeks because I’ve been inwardly occupied with the past, present, and future simultaneously. Don’t worry, I won’t bombard you or myself with the list, just know it’s extensive and exasperating.
So what’s an overwhelmed lady to do? Figure out something to meditate on.
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. And finally brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable–if anything is excellent or praiseworthy–think about such things.” -Philippians 4:6-8
For a few days at a time I’ve been meditating on each verse trying to make it a habit, because who doesn’t want, scratch that, NEED peace that transcends all understanding? I’ve learned a lot so far, like the fact that I am definitely a product of the “microwave culture”. I expected the peace to come instantly because I brought a couple of situations to God more than usual for a few days. I just rolled my eyes so hard at myself after typing that sentence. It seems I completely forgot that God’s timing is different from mine and most wonderful things come with consistency and time. Duh.
Another nugget of knowledge I gained is that God’s peace is actually active. I always looked at it as this cloud of nice feelings that rests around you and makes you feel all fuzzy inside. Buuuut, after a bit of research (sounds so smart!) I came across the Greek word φρουρέω, which is where guard is derived from in the scripture.
φρουρέω (phroureó) – to guard, protect by a military guard, either to prevent hostile invasion, or to keep the inhabitants of a besieged city from flight. (Thayers Greek Lexicon)
Basically, when we call out to God about all of our anxiety and stress, He sends peace troops to protect our minds and hearts so we’ll stay close to Jesus. That’s pretty awesome, you gotta admit. I imagine anxiety warriors throwing grenades and invading the fortress of my sanity then the peace soldiers show up like:
The peace troops have a quite a mess to clean up though because I’ve just let my thoughts be overpowered by anxiety. Maybe that’s why it’s not an instant fix too. If I’m being honest with myself, I’ve definitely fraternised with the enemy. I figured if I thought really hard about every single little thing that means I’m being responsible, detailed-oriented, and wise. Issa lie. A whole lie. But, if I present each of these situations to God, I have a fighting chance to deal with life in a healthier way. God cares about mindfulness too, He created the mind so He definitely knows what it can and cannot function on. Which brings us to the last and possibly most difficult part: THOUGHT RECONSTRUCTION!!
It’s also the shortest part. Replacing unhelpful thoughts with anything that is true, noble, right, pure, lovely, admirable, excellent, and praiseworthy. Pretty nice buffet of topics. But trying to wrangle the thoughts of the mind is like chasing chickens and attempting to put slippers on them. Don’t know why I thought of that. But yeah, that’s the point I’m at currently, then I start from the top again because random life situations rest for no one! Wash, rinse, repeat.